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Saturday, November 23, 2024
Sunday, October 27, 2024
Smokin' Pop - Nez
In the 1940s
and ‘50s Pop Davis was a perennial Lyman town council member. He always ran
“un-opposed” for re-election. For all the time we lived there he was on the
town’s council. Apparently nobody else wanted the job or everyone thought he
did a good job at it. Pop lived in the third house around the corner from us. His
real name was Fred, but everyone called him “Pop”. Pop was old, probably in his
sixties, and his hair was white, what there was of it, and he had reddish
complexion. He was officially retired. He didn’t work at a paying job anymore
and pretty much did whatever he wanted with his time, which was usually working
on a home project or fishing.
Pop was a resourceful
old guy and we often saw him driving his pickup home with a load of materials
that he had gotten somewhere for free. He stored those treasures either in his
garage attic, or in his old barn or behind it. He was really handy and very
adept at using tools, and usually had a project going where he utilized his
handyman skills for plumbing, electrical, masonry and/or carpentry. But Pop’s
real passion was fishing. So, he always finished his projects quickly so he had
more time to enjoy nature while fishing.
Although Pop
was a longtime Baptist church member he only attended weddings and funerals, more
funerals than weddings. For him, Sundays were for fishing. Nature and the riverbank were his
church, or sometimes his boat was. His
flat-bottomed river skiff with its outboard Evinrude motor was always on
its trailer parked on the street near his garage. It was gassed up and ready to
go. It was named Lilia, named after his daughter, and it rarely went anywhere.
The Skagit River was close by and Pop usually walked the hundred yards or so
from his house to the riverbank.
Pop was an
expert fisherman, one of many in Lyman. We seemed to have more than our share
in those days. Pop did most of his fishing from the riverbank, as a lot of our Lyman
anglers did rather than from their boats, which most of them had. Pop usually
came home with a fish or two, mostly steelhead or salmon. Bullheads and catfish
were always thrown back in or thrown away. They were bottom-feeders and
considered inedible.
But I guess
Pop got tired of eating fried, broiled or baked fish all the time, although
each species has its own taste, and decided it was time to change things up a
little. For years he had collected used brick and cleaned them and piled them
out behind his barn. Deciding he liked the idea of smoking salmon, he used that
brick collection to construct an outsized smokehouse with a thick birchwood
door. He installed big racks in it and could smoke half a dozen large fish on
each rack at the same time. He would rotate the fish vertically from rack to
rack so they all got equal amounts of heat and smoke. And he varied the types
of wood and seasoning to create slightly different flavors.
In a
relatively short time Pop became really expert in the art of smoking salmon,
and other fish, and beef and pork. And Pop didn’t particularly like to share.
He wouldn’t give away or sell any of his smoked meats, but sometimes he did allow
people sample them. And they were delectable and he got lots of requests for
his smoked meats. So finally, what he did was he suggested that people could
bring him their fish or meat and he would smoke it for them. They could either
pay him in cash or his payment would be half of what they brought him to be
smoked. And boy did they take him up on that offer!
For that
next year or so Pop was constantly busy tending his smokehouse and smoking fish
and meat all the time. He found himself busier than he wanted to be. He was so
busy he didn’t have time to enjoy his passion, fishing. Yet, it wasn’t like he
had a lack of fish or meat. In fact, he had so much smoked meat as payment that
his family couldn’t possibly eat all of it and he ended up having to give a lot
of it away, which really perturbed him. Many of his neighbors were fortunate
recipients and we got used to enjoying that free smoked meat. He also didn’t
like that we loved it.
All of this
added up to an exasperated Pop growing so tired of tending the smokehouse all
the time and spreading his payments around so freely that he made major
decision. He decided that he wouldn’t stop smoking fish and meats for others,
but he changed his practice and only accepted cash as payment. No more would he
accept fish or meat as payment for smoking theirs. And from then on he didn’t do
as much smoking business, but that was just fine with Pop. He had time for
fishing again.
Speaking of Cemeteries...Weren't We? - Nez
Growing up
in the 1940s and 1950s several of our Lyman neighbors were in their retirement
ages. Avery and Maggie Bryson, Nate and Bicie Watson, Pop and Mrs. Davis, Eula
and Ruth Aiken, and my great-grandparents J.G. and Mary Buckner were all
enjoying their “golden” years. And, eventually, some of them passed away. It
was hard as a young child to really understand what was happening, to
understand death. Especially since no one explained it. I wasn’t devastated or
sad when any of them died. I think the death of Grandpa Buckner, my great-grandfather,
was the first time I got it, when I began to understand.
We attended
Sunday school and church, and we knew that people from church had died, but I
think the way we processed it was that they just stopped coming to church. Of
course, I knew that Mr. Self, Mrs. Price, both Mr. and Mrs. Buchanan, and Mr.
Bryson had “died”, but I didn’t really know what that meant. And I actually
knew Mr. Bryson, he was our next door neighbor. The others were simply church
people to me. As young kids we weren’t permitted to attend any of the funerals
or burials. And most of them were buried in Lyman Cemetery, just a block away.
I was barely
six years old when Grandpa Buckner died. Mom and Dad were divorcing at the time
and we lived with our great-grandparents. His death is how I learned what death
really meant. It wasn’t explained to me though. He died on December 29, 1949.
My sister, brother and I had been sent to our other grandparents in Seattle a
few days earlier. We knew Grandpa was sick and in the hospital. But we didn’t
know he was dying. We didn’t know that he wasn’t going to get better and come
home. We were kept in Seattle until after the funeral. After we got back home
nothing was said or explained to us. It took a couple of days for us to learn
that he wouldn’t be coming back home but there was no mention of his having died.
And we missed him. That Spring Mom took us to the cemetery to his grave and we
learned that he was buried there in the ground. I thought that was horrible. It
made me so sad I cried. And I didn’t get to tell him “good-bye”.
We were
constantly in Lyman Cemetery as kids. It’s contiguous to the city park with no
fence between them. We kids took a shortcut through the cemetery to school. It
had a gate and path so we wouldn’t walk on graves and we even played in it, usually
disregarding the graves. It had/has several prominent tombstones we hid behind
to scare girls on their way to school. We also used it for cowboys and Indians,
other games and even snowball fights.
As a kid I
had several pets at different times. I never had good luck with them. We had a
couple outdoor cats. But my first pet was Blacky, a black cocker spaniel puppy that
I got from Pop Davis. I was eight or nine. We didn’t have any leash laws in
Lyman and dogs pretty much ran free but always came back home. I had him for
about a year and a half. A neighbor out near
the highway killed Blacky by poisoning him.
A year later I got a real cute female Beagle puppy and named her Trixie. After
she had her first litter of six, I gave four away but I wanted to keep two of
them. Mom declared we could not keep three dogs, so one would have to go. When
the puppies were about three months old I decided to give Trixie away. I put
notices in all over town in stores, the post office, churches, schools and
tavern. I talked with everyone but couldn’t find anyone who would take another
dog. I told Mom it looked like we were keeping three, and she declared that if
I didn’t get rid of at least one she would get rid of them all. She said if
nobody would take one, then I would have to terminate one. Days later, I ended
up tying Trixie to a tree in the woods to shoot her. I was a really good shot,
but after eight shots at her and not coming close I took her back home and told
Mom I couldn’t do it. Two days later my Dad showed up and said, ” get your gun
and dog and let’s go.” He seemed a little perturbed at me. We went to the dump
where I tied her up again. Dad told me to shoot her. When I told him I couldn’t
he took my gun and shot her, in one shot, and told me to go remove her collar
and with tears in my eyes I did so, while promising myself that I would never
own another dog. When I asked if we could bury her Dad picked her up and tossed
her over the edge of the dump. That only hardened my promise to myself. I told
Dad to take the two puppies with him. I didn’t want them anymore. He did. The
next time I went to his place I was surprised to see the two puppies were there
but I wouldn’t play with them. His new wife said she wouldn’t let him get rid
of them and said if I wanted one or both I could have them. I told her “no
thanks” so she said she would keep them
for herself. I was okay with that.
When our
kids wanted pets we went to the pound and let them each pick out their choice.
Our son picked out a year-old Border Collie and named her Pepper. Our daughter
picked out a Chow-African Ridgeback mix puppy with huge paws, which she named
Snickers. Snickers grew to about eighty-five pounds. At thirty-five pounds
Pepper was in charge. They were really close. Both dogs eventually became
Judy’s. Then at seven years old Snickers became ill and the vet diagnosed her
with diabetes, and said,” bring her back tomorrow and we’ll have insulin for
her.” She died at home that night. Judy was crushed. Pepper was despondent for
some time but mostly recovered. Then Pepper was Judy’s only dog. We had her for
a total of eighteen years before she was humanely euthanized. Pepper was Judy’s
dog but she became adopted me against my will, but I have resisted doing so
with others. I don’t know that I ever will. They are buried in a pet cemetery outside
of Bowie, Texas.
I’m not
comfortable at pet cemeteries. I find them creepy. We visited a couple before deciding
on one. Playing in our cemetery as a kid I don’t mind visiting deceased loved
ones, but I’m not keen to attend a burial. I know that I will do so again at
some point, maybe my own, but I’m certainly not looking forward to it.
Pop's Projects - Nez
My Mom’s mother
was Letha Davison. I never got to meet my grandmother. She died when Mom was
sixteen, several years before I was even thought of. She is buried in the Lyman
cemetery in the adjoining grave to her eldest daughter, mom’s sister, my Aunt
Thelma, who I also never got to meet. Aunt Thelma had died two years earlier
than grandmother while giving birth to Milton, her only child. Their graves are beside
the north fence of the cemetery, right where Pop Davis could keep an eye on
them. Except for a barbed-wire fence they were basically in his front yard.
That fence divided all of Pop’s property and the cemetery, about a hundred
yards wide.
Pop Davis place
was just three houses around the corner from us, yet our families weren’t
particularly close. Though he was retired Pop was always busy. I guess he
wasn’t anxious to claim a spot across the fence just yet. He kept a really nice
looking place. And you rarely found him sitting around unless he was in town
talking to voters and families. Pop was a longtime town council member. Oftentimes,
you found him home working in the yard or on a project or fishing. But every
few weeks you could find him in town talking with people and building
relationships. I thought he was old, but he was probably only in his sixties,
and he still climbed ladders, worked in his orchard and built anything he
wanted.
Pop’s small old
unpainted barn sat about twenty yards from his house and about as far from the
cemetery, among the fruit trees in his large orchard. If you weren’t paying
attention you didn’t even notice the barn. He used it for storage and kept it
locked. We figured there were all kinds of treasures in there. The orchard was several
acres and had walnut, hazelnut, apple, plum, cherry, and pear trees. There were
at least fifteen trees, several quite large, and they all produced every season.
Each season he harvested all he needed, then he invited others come and take what
they needed for their personal use. Pop kept baskets of apples for his cider
and applejack. The still was in his basement. He could have taken his fruits to
local stores and sold them but he chose to share. He had a big smokehouse
between two big cherry trees.
His only other
field was treeless, was beyond the orchard and was contiguous to our school grounds.
At times we cut through his fields as a shortcut to school. He didn’t like it
and would yell at us to go around, which meant through the cemetery. But if we
were already in the second field we just kept going. Pop rented out that field.
There were three semi-wild horses there for years. They were never ridden or
worked. Nobody got near them. If we tried they ran away. I never understood why
they were there.
I never
understood this either. I thought houses were normally built facing the street,
but not our neighbor’s, Pop Davis. His house should have faced east toward the
street. He certainly had the space. But no, his house faced south, toward the
cemetery, just across the fence from his front yard. His neighbor, George
Davidson, directly across the street, was just the opposite. George should have
built his house facing west, but it faced north toward the hills. Every other
house in Lyman faced the street. Two neighbors houses facing the wrong way from
each other was weird. No one knew why and it remains a mystery to this day.
Another
project Pop did was when he tore down his old single car garage all by himself,
preserving all of the old lumber from which he built the footings, had a
concrete floor poured and then built a modern two-car garage and workshop,
which he painted white both inside and out. The attic was extra tall for
storage and he installed windows and hay-loft type doors on each end. He put
red shutters on the windows. He could reach those doors from the bed of his
pickup. He had stairs up to the attic in his workshop. Except for pouring the
concrete floor Pop did all the work himself in just a few months. Other than a
table saw he didn’t have power tools. The garage matched the look of his house.
He was that good.
Pop kept a
pristine front yard and lawn facing the cemetery. It was like a flower garden
with several trees. But one Spring he
tore it up and dug a large hole in the yard. At first people thought he might
be digging a grave, but it was too large for that. You could have put a whole
family in there. Then we thought maybe it was going to be a swimming pool, but
it wasn’t deep enough. After a couple of weeks with this new project taking
shape, it was done. He had built a big, beautiful koi pond with big golden koi right
in front of my aunt’s and grandmother’s graves. He surrounded it with flower beds and placed
Adirondak chairs looking across the pond at the cemetery. Their graves were not
ten feet from his koi pond. When my Mom visited her mother’s and sister's
graves she really enjoyed Pop’s koi pond and told him so. Pop replied, “It’s
for your family. You should sit and relax in the chairs.”
Nez Nesmith
October 2024
Note: Though
we only lived in Lyman for sixteen formative years, I walked or ran or bicycled
to every nook and cranny of the town. That whole town was my playground and growing
up there in the 1940s and 1950s I still remember every road, street, alley, barn,
building and house in Lyman during those years. It was a tiny town of only 435
people and while I may no longer always remember what I did yesterday, I still
have those memories from long ago.
Monday, September 30, 2024
A Fork in the Road -Marc
A FORK IN THE ROAD
So long ago, through a fog
I recall
My love of music and performing
Their applause and compliments
Had I forgotten what could had been
If I followed that road
Or why I laid down my sticks
For a girl who would betray me
Into a life of Science
Which was never enough
Something always missing
But I would never allow
That part of my heart to surface
To get in the way of the script
But, miracles of miracles
They put the sticks back
Into my hands
And it all came rushing back
An avalanche of emotion
And my heart broke once again
But I know that I would have never met you
My love of loves
Without the road I traveled
So I gladly lay down
My sticks again
And mourn what might have been
Weebles - Marc
WEEBLES
Once I knew a Weeble
His name was Joey G
He was the largest Weeble
In his Weeble family
We played cards and Parcheesi
Outside his bungalow
And when he got excited
He would roll to and fro
I met him through a girl
Whose face I don’t recall
But when it came to me
She was quite the carnivore
One day he took a tumble
It was some sight to see
Sixteen straining Weebles
Trying to upright Joey G
The girl just disappeared
Simply walked right out a door
And from that day forward
I saw Joey G no more
I heard that he fell down a hill
While staring at his phone
And no one could upright him
So he lay there all alone
Years later I would see him
At a restaurant
I think it was in Hollywood
Or perhaps in Vermont
He was all deflated
It was quite sad to see
But his wife was still a Weeble
As she stared angrily at me
So if you meet a Weeble
Please listen to what I say
Always stand beside them so
They don’t roll down your driveway
Sunday, September 15, 2024
Clan Condition - Nez
After a
playground game of basketball Wayne quickly sat down and removed both shoes.
His feet hurt. A lot, and he didn’t know why. They didn’t burn or sting like needles
or spikes. They just hurt. His shoes still fit, and he’d been wearing them a
couple of months. He had played several basketball games over that time. This
was the first time his feet hurt though. He took off his socks and rubbed both
feet and didn’t see anything unusual. He tried standing on his bare feet and
the pain wasn’t as sharp as it had been. He sat back down and put his socks on
and stood again. Still, not as sharp as before. He sat down again and tried
putting his shoes back on and stood. Sharp pain was back. So, he sat down again
and loosened the laces. That was better, so maybe it was the shoes after all. With
loose laces he could walk so he limped home and told his mom he needed new
shoes. That would not be the last time Wayne’s feet were that painful. No.
Lillian
enjoyed writing stories and was excited when her sixth grade teacher gave the
class a short writing assignment about animals. Lillian had a couple of pets, a
cat, a hamster and a parakeet and telling stories about them was one of her
favorite things. She took paper and pencil and began to write, except that her
right hand was painful. The more she wrote the more it hurt and now the pain
was moving up her arm. She put down her pencil and cried out. Her teacher came
to Lillian to see what the matter was. Through tears Lillian tried to explain
her pain. Her right hand was very painful and now her left arm was also
becoming painful. The very concerned teacher took Lillian from the classroom
and called her mother. Lillian’s mother came and took Lillian home and to the
doctor. And that was not the only time Lillian’s hands and arms would
experience excruciating pain. No.
One Sunday
morning Judy was singing for the church congregation when her left eye began
twitching painfully. By the end of the song her eye was twitching so painfully
that she ran tearfully off stage. Judy’s mother noticed her sobbing exit from
the stage and went to her. After Judy’s explanation and showing her Mom her
twitching eye, they went home and made a doctor’s appointment. And that was not
the last time Judy’s left eye twitched so painfully. No.
Terry and a
buddy were riding bikes when Terry’s right foot suddenly and painfully cramped
up. He tried braking but the pain was too much and his left ankle was hurting
too. Terry couldn’t pedal and he couldn’t stop so he coasted and simply fell off
his bike. His buddy came to his aid but there wasn’t much he could do to ease
Terry’s pain. But, he helped a sobbing Terry, up to sit on his bicycle seat, and
with Terry’s feet dangling, his buddy pushed him home. Terry’s mother helped
him inside and called the doctor. And that was not the only time Terry’s feet
and ankles would hurt so painfully. No.
One might
think these little anecdotes are unrelated. They are not. Each of these kids,
that I grew up with in Lyman, was diagnosed with the same ailment, a Musculo-skeletal
nerve disorder that’s a little different from most diseases. And while the condition
is not unheard of, it’s pretty rare. It’s called CMT, an inherited condition
for which there is no cure. Those who get it have it for the rest of their
lives. It manifests itself in families or clans rather than the general
population. And it passes from one generation to the next. In this family it
manifested in each individual quite suddenly, yet it didn’t afflict every family
member. As in this case Wayne and Judy are brother and sister. Their other sister
and brother were spared. Lillian and Terry are also siblings and their two
brothers were spared as well. These four are children of two brothers, one of whom
had the malady in his feet, drop-foot. There was also another brother who
suffered from the disease, yet none of his three children got it. Of that older
generation of five kids only two had the condition. The disease is not
contagious and generally shows up after puberty, and in this family’s case it
was localized in each person. It didn’t spread, though it often worsens and can
become debilitating. It appears in males and females equally.
All of these
kids saw many specialists and the whole family became a medical case study for
Seattle hospitals in the 1950’s. Several medications were tried to ease their
pain, but they tended to make things worse. When ibuprophen finally came on the
market in the 1960’s they discovered it eased their pain better than anything
else.
Lillian and
Terry suffered greatly throughout their lives as they attempted many different
solutions that didn’t work. In time, Lillian had a hand and arm amputated below
the elbow, and Terry had a foot amputated, and years later he had the other
foot amputated, both just above the ankle. Wayne and Judy worked with their
doctors, who did their research, and made personal adjustments rather than
trying unproven medicines. Judy still manages to live with her twitching eye,
at times quite painful. Wayne wore specially made shoes with extra-high arches.
He lost feeling in his feet and walking was sometimes difficult for him.
These four
kids and their four siblings produced fourteen children of their families’ next
generation, yet only two have become afflicted with the disease. It’s unknown
how many American families share this disease. The disease is called CMT
(Charcot-Marie-Tooth) named after the doctors who discovered it in the
mid-1800’s (two French, one English), and there are several forms of the
disease. CMT is caused by a defect in one of the genes responsible for
development of peripheral nerves. Early in its diagnosis it was thought to be a
type of muscular dystrophy. But it’s an inherited nerve disorder, and not
muscular dystrophy, arthritis, polio, nor any other known disease. It’s
different and often painful.
Thursday, September 12, 2024
Teams - Marc
TEAMS
I quit my team yesterday
Disgusted by what was expected of me
Hate, hate and more hate of
The other team
No discussion allowed
No consideration of the other teams
Thoughts and ideas
Only hatred
And most importunately
The need to crush
Them completely
Absolutely
But now I’m free
From the propaganda that passes
As journalism
I have disconnected it
Atheists from both teams
Do not realize that they
Are part of a religion whose
Only commandment is hate
Without tolerance of
Anyone who disagrees with our
Leader or positions
Heathens they are, requiring extermination
I now see them as all fools
Zombies, lemmings
Souls filled with nothing
But hatred
All consuming
Burning away their humanity
For their team
Which always betrays them in the end
Hatred destroys souls
I would rather shake your hand
Although we may disagree
Let’s share our humanity
And learn to listen
Listen, listen and tell our leaders
To go fuck themselves
As we all quit their teams